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I’ve been at this blogging thing for a bit – but have gone off the radar, back on, off again…I enjoy writing a lot…and get inspired by so many things – want to get a creative as possible, but for whatever reason there are things that hold me back. I guess many of us go through these feelings from time to time – where we don’t trust our own selves to be the best we can be…or rather, what if our best self isn’t “good enough”? You’ll often hear people say that you should talk to yourself the way you would talk to a loved one or best friend – you would never tell them that they couldn’t do something or that you don’t believe in them, so why is it so easy for us to do it to ourselves? I mean, it becomes second nature in some cases to the point where you don’t even realize that you are in fact, slamming yourself down into the ground day in and out. 

I think this negative self-talk, paired with procrastination and oftentimes feeling like there are never enough hours in the day (which is complete BS!) lead me astray from some of the goals that I have for myself. From doing some of the things that I am completely passionate about. 

And all because I am “comfortable” – despite my being unhappy with the path that I am currently on career wise, it pays the bills, right? Not only that, but I am also afraid of what others will think – which is another thing in itself that is sad. Why can’t my voice be just as important as others? In retrospect, it is…but that fear is what holds me back. My comfort is what holds me back. And my unhappiness is what keeps reminding me that I’m not meant to be doing what I am currently doing and I need to step outside of that comfort zone and do things for me!

It’s important in the blogging world to have a sort of niche – I started with one, and then eventually got to a fork in the road…I decided to split myself in two, which lead me to another, which divided me up and as you can see now this blog is just absolutely all over the map. I have everything from high fashion to celeb gossip, fitness to bodybuilding to food to random rambling and book wishlists…I mean, these are all things that I love…but…it doesn’t contribute to anyone’s well being really…does it?

So I have decided that I will dedicate at least 30 minutes of my time, daily, to brainstorming and figuring out what my own niche is. What actual direction I want this blog to go in. I might end up going to an entirely different domain (which has happened before to no success) and just continue on with this one and babystep it. But perhaps it’s time for a fresh start? As much as I love this blog there really isn’t any continuity or consistency in my thought process or the direction The Darling is headed.

I really think that it might be a more nutritional based approach, take some of my schooling and throw it in there…and I might still have some inspo-type posts….but, it’s time to grow up a bit.

Thanks to all those that have stuck by me (although I’m thinking there aren’t many of you left)…and here’s to a better year (last year was no Bueno) and one where I demand myself to step out of my comfort zone at least once a week! This is one of those I guess…I’ll be sure to keep everyone in the loop.

-S.*