Thursday, May 26, 2011

::under:the:weather::

Hello all. 
I am feeling very much under the weather today...it's not that I feel sick to my tummy...my anxiety is at mid-level and I sorta feel like my world is crashing down, things around me are kind of falling apart...I can be the only one to blame for this as people can shape and take charge of their own futures and present but I am just feeling really sad. I am feeling like I am letting people down...I feel like I am definitely letting myself down as well. I will spare everyone the details, of course, and those that are close to me do know what is going on...well, not a lot of people...
I just want a sunnier outlook again...maybe it's just today and the weather {raining - again} but I just want to...and NEED to make changes and stick to them. 
This is a promise that I am making to my loved ones and to myself. I gotta start taking care of myself and others around me and just lead a healthier and happier life. 

But for now...right this moment, I just want to curl into a little ball {or huge; whatever; ha ha} under my blankets with my kitty, window open, tv off, whatever...and just sleep.
Or cry.


Georgina Stojiljkovic by Stefano Galuzzi for Grey Spring 2010

-S.*

2 comments:

  1. It's okay to have a day {or two}to wallow and cry. Holding it all in only makes things worse.

    Hoping you're back to your sunny-self soon!

    {hugs}

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  2. Thanks so much for your kind words Gina. :) I am a little back to my old self today. Lol.
    Hope all is well with you!!
    Will definitely need to give that fudge recipe a shot. :)

    -S.*

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